Darling, I will always love you. Sometimes I
think about our condition, about your voluntary jail, and I feel that I am a
complicated man, because I love a forbidden girl and this love occupies me, but
I can't forget our feeling and I don't want to be different with you.
However, you think that to be without me is better for
us. I
disagree, but what can I do? You said that the life is yours, and I can't
change your opinion with my words. I just wanted to be happy like a gardener
with his garden or a photographer with his art. I love you and I feel that my
soul is crumbling and my heart is aching and nothing can change this.
When I enter in a classroom, I imagine that you could
be my student. The
time would go pass quickly, and I would to be a good teacher to hold your
attention. My racionality asks me: Why much suffering? There is dedicating
their strengths in the wrong direction?
Maybe I'm doing it all wrong and I'll be the most
affected in the end. Maybe
I should change my posture, be less sensitive. My opinions it seems totally
wrong. My destiny is to suffer.
When the moon comes up and the people return to their
houses, I think that you could be with me. In my bed, I see your body's picture and
my body easily gets excited.
Oh, darling, these things are very strange. I find the
reason in my dreams and I understand that we'll never be together. But when I
wake up, still sad because of my dream, I say to myself that I can't stay
without you. I cling to a beautiful illusion builded across our frank words. Let
it be, my princess. Don't forget: I love you.
I'll try to forget you. I need to like more than I am. I
have a lot of beautiful dreams and I believe I can realize them. I hope by the
end of this storm. I want meet the people and don't feel angry of them. I want
to learn with the mistake of loving you. I have many things to talk, but I
think that's enough. I bury my broken heart. I want to forget this suffering
fool.
Fernando Costa e Silva
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